Struggling with Impatience

13 For when God made a promise to Abraham, since he had no one greater by whom to swear, he swore by himself,
14 saying, "Surely I will bless you and multiply you."
15 And thus Abraham, having patiently waited, obtained the promise.
16 For people swear by something greater than themselves, and in all their disputes an oath is final for confirmation.
17 So when God desired to show more convincingly to the heirs of the promise the unchangeable character of his purpose, he guaranteed it with an oath,
18 so that by two unchangeable things, in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled for refuge might have strong encouragement to hold fast to the hope set before us.
19 We have this as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul, a hope that enters into the inner place behind the curtain,
20 where Jesus has gone as a forerunner on our behalf, having become a high priest forever after the order of Melchizedek.

- Hebrews 6:13-20

One of my greater struggles, especially in this day and age of fast food and faster computers, is the constant struggle with impatience. I used to think that I was a very patient fellow when I was younger, that is, until I found out more about myself.

Whether it be standing in a queue, waiting at a traffic junction or leading a group, the desire to jump ahead is always there. Perhaps that is why I prefer playing strategy and city-building sims rather than FPS or RPGs since one gets to "play god" so as to speak, where at a click of a button decades can pass and the fruits of ones planning clearly seen.

Maybe that's why this post-uni life is so frustrating. The neither-here-nor-there feeling. Where one has to start re-building ties with others whom one has neglected over the past six years or seek new ones, only to realize the truism that Rome really wasn't built in a day.

So hard to wait, so hard to wait.

But yet the great irony is that eventually, all things will come to past. All of ones hopes and plans for the future will soon become the present, and then fade into the past. One day Christ will return and there will be no more sorrow, no more struggles against the flesh, no more worries about the future. To be swallowed up in Life forever.

Oh Lord to wait for You and on You.

Only one life, twill soon be past, only what's done for Christ will last. And when I am dying, how happy I'll be, if the lamp of my life has been burned out for Thee.