Video uploads

Some stuff that I edited from the web for my friend. Thought that I might as well post it here.

All to Jesus (Paris Reidhead)


Revival Hymn (Various)

The Holiness of God

Someone highlighted this video to me and I helped merge both parts so that it becomes one continuous video.

On Women and Authority

As a add-on to my last post, I saw this post over at the Christian Research Network. The actual blog is reformation 21.

*Edit* Another interesting read here.

Voddie Baucham on Sarah Palin

Saw this on the Def.Con. blog and I really never thought that such a thing could ever happen. Someone who actually stood up for the Truth *gasp* on international television. *double gasp*

Quote of the Day:
"I am a herald of the Truth of the Gospel, and my job is to teach the Gospel according to what the authors have said, not according to what I think the culture wants to hear."

- Voddie Baucham

I Will Never Be the Same Again

An old song that I wonder why the church nowadays doesn't seem to sing anymore. Probably because we do not seem to believe anymore in a God that changes and regenerates Man, or that a true Christian is a new creation in Christ, with a heart that seeks to glorify God's name above all else.

May the Lord bless you mightily through this song.



I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk the path, I'll run the race
And I will never be the same again.

Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again.
Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff,
And let the flame burn to glorify Your name.

There are higher heights, there are deeper seas,
Whatever you need to do, Lord do it in me.
The Glory of God fills my life,
And I will never be the same again.

The Beauty of God's Word

It is indeed a joy and even a certain amount of ecstasy when one reads the Bible and the words seem to jump out of the pages or verses that you may have read a hundred times before suddenly seem to give new insights or revelations.

Over the past couple of days I have been doing concurrent readings of 1 Corinthians and 1 Timothy and in the mirror of God's Word, so much error in my thinking and theology have been exposed and indeed I praise God for the grace that He has given in revealing them to me. There is so much that the Lord is leading me to consider and I hardly know where to start or what to write down first, but I shall try to put in a coherent manner despite my own messy way of thinking.

"What then is Apollos? What is Paul? Servants through whom you believed, as the Lord assigned to each. I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the growth. So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God who gives the growth."
- 1 Corinthians 3: 5-8 (ESV)

As I have shared before, so often I have fallen into sinful pride, in thinking that I was someone, a boy who knew more about God's Truth than most of his peers and the only person whom God could use to preach the truth in his church. But as I read this passage again, what is the man whom God uses but a person He so chooses to pour out His Grace upon? As one of my favourite preachers said, "I always remind myself [if ever I become proud in my own preaching] that God can speak through rocks and donkeys." Indeed the Lord uses the foolish to confound the wise and the wisdom of this world is folly to God.

In addition to this, this morning when I awoke there was this subtle yet obvious temptation in my flesh to dabble again in lustful thoughts, a habitual sin in my mind that has plagued me for more than a decade. And as I struggled against it as I always do, I read the two passages of 1 Corinthians that I had earmarked for today. And lo and behold, chapters 5 and 6 contained Paul's warnings against sexual immorality. Needless to say, the temptation subsided really quickly after that. May the Lord grant me the grace to remain holy as He is Holy.

"Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s."

- 1 Corinthians 6: 18-20

I have more thoughts regarding some things in 1 Timothy that God has impressed upon me regarding the false ascetism and super-spirituality that so often I have mistaken as closeness to God, but I shall probably write it down another time God willing.

One other thing that the Lord seems to be pressing upon me is whether, in my cynicism and caution, I have in a way despised or "quenched" the Spirit. While I believe that God is the indeed the God of miracles and a God who heals, there is a certain part of me that seems over-cautious and unbelieving when dealing with what is often termed now as "moves of the Spirit". Now I do dislike the way certain people seem to treat God and the Holy Spirit with a certain amount of irreverence or as a miracle vending machine that they can pull miracles out at will, but there is a sense that I may have become too judgemental and in the process may have inadvertently blasphemed against the work of the Holy Spirit.

“And anyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man, it will be forgiven him; but to him who blasphemes against the Holy Spirit, it will not be forgiven."

- Luke 12:10

May the Lord grant me wisdom and mercy in discerning this.

Where is your focus?

The Kingdom of Heaven is like a Treasure (Paul Washer)


"Again, the kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and hid; and for joy over it he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field."

- Matthew 13:44

Just and Justifier

Quoted from this blog (Defending. Contending.)

How can God ever “justify the ungodly” without becoming an abomination to Himself? “He who says to the wicked, ‘You are righteous,’ peoples will curse him, nations will abhor him [Proverbs 24:24]. How can God say to sinners like us, “You are righteous,” without violating His own character? How can God ever save us from Himself and His own righteousness and justice? . . . Repentant sinners know that they deserve to be punished, and that it would not be right for them not to be. They know that God cannot just “sweep their sins under the rug” and forget about them. Hence, the cry of their hearts is, “How can a just God ever smile upon me? How can this burden of guilt be removed? How can God pronounce a blessing upon me? How can a man like me be in the right before God!” There is only one answer to this dilemma. Someone has to pay for the sinner’s sins. Justice must be satisfied. Either it will be satisfied by the sinner’s own suffering forever in Hell, or it must be satisfied by someone else on the sinner’s behalf.

- Charles Leiter

A humbling from God

I believe today has been a culmination or fulfillment of a lesson God has been trying to teach me for the better part of two weeks. I had always thought that upon moving from ministry in BB to church, I would be essentially hitting the ground running. I had so many big thoughts and dreams and just wanted to serve the Lord actively in church just as I had spent the last 6 -7 years in ACS, or so I thought.

I thought, and I confess my shame in it, that I was going to be "God's Gift" to my church. I had thought that with what little knowledge God had so graciously granted me of Himself in the past year in ACS that I, Nicholas the MAN, could go forth and speak mighty things in His Name.

Oh how I thought wrong. Oh the foolishness of it all.

During the past week I could definitely sense the Lord leading me to patience, to be willing to sit down and just gaze upon Him and His Beauty. To be willing to, at the risk of sounding cliche, just be still and know that He is God. What need does God require of me running around impatiently doing "His Will"? The Lord moves in ways that we cannot see, and indeed He moves in His time.

But no, I would not heed His warnings. "Let me preach oh Lord, let me preach," that was my own selfish cry. I had "ingested" so many sermons by Ravenhill, Reidhead, Washer, etc... that in my conceitedness and pride I had deluded myself into thinking that I could preach like the best. And God let me have my own way. When Marc asked me to help him do one bible study for the Year 6s, I pushed aside all His warnings and jumped at the chance despite knowing deep down that something wasn't right. Even though in His graciousness He led me clearly to what should be preached, the preparation was tedious and without joy. During the sharing itself, indeed throughout the whole Bible Study, there was simply no flow or movement of the Holy Spirit. In fact it seemed like as though something had clouded my mind and I just could not get my thoughts together (as horribly jumbled as they already are). There was simply no passion or conviction in the message at all. There was no reality of Christ.

And as I walked back home, it almost seemed like the Lord was telling me gently. "I told you so, I told you so." And all I could do was reply, "Yes, Lord, you were right all along." I definitely sense now that the Lord is leading me into a time of spiritual wilderness, to a time of waiting upon Him and discovering His Joy as well as anguish for the church in ever increasing measure. To be able to wait patiently until the time He says,"Go." Indeed there is so much pride, self-righteousness and puffed-up knowledge within me that only His divine hands will be able to rescue from them, for I cannot even change myself.

Forgive me for my foolishness.

"We know that we all have knowledge. Knowledge puffs up, but love edifies. And if anyone thinks that he knows anything, he knows nothing yet as he ought to know. But if anyone loves God, this one is known by Him."
- 1 Corinthians 8: 1-2

Project Troubles

One of my calculations for my FYP just went kaput. Potentially lost a week's worth of calculations and I have no idea whether my backup data will upload properly.

Sigh, I really do not yet know the purpose God has for me in continuing on for my Honours year. As I've always believe, I am not academically inclined, and even after a month I still have almost no idea what my FYP is really all about. Added to the fact that somehow have no "form" for my sole history module, this semester is turning out to be a real disaster.

However, by faith I know that He will see me through and by faith He will guide me in His steps. Teach me oh Lord to seek after a city with foundations, who's builder and maker is God (Hebrews 11:9).

Blessed be the Name of the Lord

On Prayer

I have no idea why I cannot seem to spend more time in prayer. Actually maybe I do, but there is a sense that unless the Lord grants me grace, I will never be able to pray the way that I ought to pray.

The mind is a terrible thing. So many thoughts that distract, so often wandering off and thinking things that I know I should not be thinking.

I can't even spend a half an hour with Jesus, but I can spend hours upon hours just surfing on the internet or even reading a book. Unless the Lord should grant me a glorious revelation of Himself, one does sense that one will continue to languish in a spiritual dead-end.

Oh Lord teach me to pray. Teach me to persevere in prayer.

Busy Busy Busy

Gosh, so many things to do, so many things to write about. Uni work is really beginning to take a toll this semester. Don't really have time to write something long for now, so I'll just leave a song instead. :P


Standing here in Your presence
Thinking of the good things You have done
Waiting here patiently
Just to hear Your still small voice again
Holy, righteous, faithful till the end
Saviour, healer, redeemer and friend

I will worship You for who You are
I will worship You for who You are
I will worship You for who You are
Jesus

My soul secure, Your promise sure, Your Love endures, always
My soul secure, Your promise sure, Your Love endures, always
My soul secure, Your promise sure, Your Love endures, always