Taming One's Desires

Both we and our fathers have sinned;
we have committed iniquity; we have done wickedness.
Our fathers, when they were in Egypt,
did not consider your wondrous works;
they did not remember the abundance of your steadfast love,
but rebelled by the sea, at the Red Sea.
Yet he saved them for his name’s sake,
that he might make known his mighty power.
He rebuked the Red Sea, and it became dry,
and he led them through the deep as through a desert.
So he saved them from the hand of the foe
and redeemed them from the power of the enemy.
And the waters covered their adversaries;
not one of them was left.
Then they believed his words;
they sang his praise.

But they soon forgot his works;
they did not wait for his counsel.
But they had a wanton craving in the wilderness,
and put God to the test in the desert;
he gave them what they asked,
but sent a wasting disease among them.

- Psalm 106: 6-15 (Bold mine)

Oh to wait upon the Lord and for His timing. How wildly do my desires and temptations rage. Surely he who acts in haste will repent at leisure. The Lord will provide, has He ever failed? He gives His children good gifts, and not one spiritual blessing does He withhold.

Will you not tame my wandering eye and lustful heart? Indeed my flesh is too weak. So often have I wandered off that narrow path and into the castle of Giant Despair. Will the Lord forgive again? Surely you are slow to anger and abounding in love and mercy.

Be merciful to me O Lord, a sinner.